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Judicant
08-01-2012, 10:30 AM
As I know just within our staff we have a couple people that have issues with how they eat and what they can eat that are beyond their control, I'd figure I'd open this up for everyone. It's also of interest to me because as some people may have guessed, I like food, and I find the inability to be able to eat something very depressing and I want to hug all of you.

This is not to say I'm outside the scope of this, no. Despite liking to cook and buy a shit ton of food, I actually have considerable trouble eating. Several people who knew me over on FAF know the gist of the story, but I have achalasia, which pretty much means that all the nerves in my esophagus have burned out and stopped working. And you know, the muscles in there are pretty important for actually being able to swallow stuff. :P

It was bad enough to the point where I was lucky to get one small meal down a day, the rest would get trapped and I'd have to throw it up (which honestly... makes you not hungry anymore). Towards the end before the procedure that 'fixed' things, I lost 40-50lbs in a month and was feeling the beginning effects of muscle atrophy.

The tests and procedures and all that are pretty boring and a bit depressing, so I won't really be talking about those. Basically now I can kinda-sorta eat because they've forcibly stretched the lower esophageal sphincter open, which in place of the esophagus' muscle rhythms lets gravity just pull food to my stomach (SORRY, CAN'T BE AN ASTRONAUT). It's not perfect though, and I should probably get it done again, so it leaves me with several things I just cannot eat. Generally, incredibly dense or rough textured foods end up getting stuck somewhere, and spicy and sour foods just irritate everything and somehow manage to clamp up my LES for a couple hours (it's on my AVOID AT ALL COSTS list). Aside from that, despite eating more than I was at the time of the problem, I haven't been able to put on any more weight and I'm falling into the underweight category. So this week I'm trying to eat a lot more fatty foods (but not fast food ew) and trying to make sure I eat enough every day. It also takes me a good 45-60 minutes to eat a decent sized meal, and sometimes my schedule prevents me from eating as much as I should. :<

But yes, enough about me, I want to know about anyone else who's experienced eating problems, either personally or if someone close to you has issues. Bitch, complain, cry, reminisce, it's all good here.

FishNChips
08-01-2012, 10:38 AM
I remember one particular period where I hardly ate a thing. I just never felt like it, and sometimes I felt sick when I tried.

Outside of that I'm terrible at eating. Like, I'm picky as hell. Though my pickiness is more down to texture than it is taste. For one thing, I hate eating soup, casserole, stew, and other wet lumpy shit.

Judicant
08-01-2012, 10:45 AM
Though my pickiness is more down to texture than it is taste.

This is why I don't eat red meat that hasn't been processed in some way. The texture is just god awful and I can't stand it.

Uini
08-01-2012, 03:04 PM
When I'm extremely sick or depressed, I have no desire to eat at all. When I'm normal, yeah buddy! I love food.

But the problem I have, is that it's very hard for me to keep up a schedule and eat at appropriate times. I ALWAYS miss breakfast. And I would go an entire day without eating until I either get hit with a hunger pain or finally remember I need to shovel food into my pie hole.

Ibuuyk
08-01-2012, 10:16 PM
I used to eat almost nothing 'cause I was picky as shit, then my mom got cancer and had to send me in a foster family for a year, where all they fed me was tomato sandwiches, beans and fish eggs. I'm much, much, MUCH less picky now. And don't even show me tomatoes, beans or fish eggs or I'll have a gag reflex from the awful memories.

Also, I'm the 2nd fastest eater in my family after my uncle, and we both don't gain any weight from eating even though our stomachs are black holes. Desserts excluded. When I lived with my grandma for three years during my last years of high school and my first year of college, I went from no belly to making me disgusted of myself and dressing in the baggiest hoodies you could find because she worked as a cook specialized in desserts all of her life, and she LOVES to spoil everybody. Since then, I try to eat the least fat, salt and desserts as possible, eating just a banana for breakfast, nothing for dinner and then pig out at supper (chips, pizza, fast food, anything is accepted). It may not seem like much, but just from that particular banana-nothing-everything diet, I lost 30 pounds in the first month. 30 pounds, one month, I had to fucking buy new clothes. And that, three times in two years.

I went from being legally obese by Quebecois standards to actually almost reaching my healthy weight. At first I wore the baggiest hoodies, then I lost enough weight for shirts to actually look good on me, and now?

Fuck shirts, it's too fucking hot outside.

zenia
08-01-2012, 11:19 PM
I have no medical issues... but most of the time I just can't be arsed to eat. I don't like preparing food or cooking unless it is for other people... because then I get praise for being a good cook.

I bet I would be skinny now if I hadn't had a major overeating problem when I was a kid/teen.

My major thing, like Gibby, is textures. Chunks of fruit in yogurt? NO! Only lemon meringue/vanilla/banana flavor for me thanks! Onions? NO! They are either too slimey or too crunchy. etc.

AtomiKamikaze
08-01-2012, 11:26 PM
2010 I was so depressed for about 6 months because of some pedophile Timon-fan causing drama in our inner circle; didn't really eat much aside from frozen gatorade for the whole time. I was always a little chubby at 115lbs, went down to 89lbs and when I got weighed for some pre-Air Force training I was 1 pound away from being forcefed. Now uh...the opposite is the case, I'm chubby again. (Maybe I should work out, I'm getting jealous of all these toned bitches in my place)

And I'm with zenia on the onions. Blurgh. When you eat spaghetti with the sauce and it has those chunks in it and you hear this sickening "CRUNCH"...spaghetti shouldn't crunch. D;

zenia
08-01-2012, 11:30 PM
Blurgh. When you eat spaghetti with the sauce and it has those chunks in it and you hear this sickening "CRUNCH"...spaghetti shouldn't crunch. D;Indeed! I tend to blenderize my sauce (adding the meat in later) so that it is all the same texture. My sister thinks I am nuts. I think it is better that way.

I like the flavor of onions in cooking... so I use onion powder. The only time I like non-powdered ones is in onion rings. The onion is soggy, but the batter is crispy, so it cancels each other out... unless the onion piece is too big.

catwithpen
08-02-2012, 12:19 AM
...eating just a banana for breakfast, nothing for dinner and then pig out at supper (chips, pizza, fast food, anything is accepted). It may not seem like much, but just from that particular banana-nothing-everything diet, I lost 30 pounds in the first month. 30 pounds, one month, I had to fucking buy new clothes. And that, three times in two years.

Holy shit! I need to try that. Sounds like the best diet ever.



I went from being legally obese by Quebecois standards to actually almost reaching my healthy weight. At first I wore the baggiest hoodies, then I lost enough weight for shirts to actually look good on me, and now?

Fuck shirts, it's too fucking hot outside.

That is impressive, good for you :)

Ibuuyk
08-02-2012, 10:26 AM
Holy shit! I need to try that. Sounds like the best diet ever.



That is impressive, good for you :)

My diet's only good if you're a couch potato like me, not enough calories for active people :P

Besides, it's pretty much the only thing I can do since my shitty back prevents me from doing any kind of exercise.

Also, if I'm really starving, I'll make me a nice bowl of apple sauce :3

catwithpen
08-02-2012, 12:45 PM
My diet's only good if you're a couch potato like me, not enough calories for active people :P

Yeah, I've been a big couch potato for the last few years. I tried exercising, but I just don't have the motivation. I'm gonna try a few different things, and see what works for me.

The one thing I refuse to do is force myself to eat food that doesn't taste good. The way I see it, if I don't want to eat it, it doesn't matter how healthy it is, because I won't be eating it. Plus, making yourself miserable can't be healthy either.

Ibuuyk
08-02-2012, 03:20 PM
Yeah, I've been a big couch potato for the last few years. I tried exercising, but I just don't have the motivation. I'm gonna try a few different things, and see what works for me.

The one thing I refuse to do is force myself to eat food that doesn't taste good. The way I see it, if I don't want to eat it, it doesn't matter how healthy it is, because I won't be eating it. Plus, making yourself miserable can't be healthy either.

Ya, I barely eat any veggies at all. I know I should eat more of 'em, but bleh. I'm a meat guy :c

RadioCatastrophe
08-02-2012, 06:22 PM
Extremely picky, and lactose intolerant uwu

Whenever I go to families houses they know exactly what I wanna eat or they read off my very short list of things.. Hot dogs, Hamburgers.. the usual. I do try and venture out when I find something looks taste from its presentation and I'll give it a benefit of a doubt but ya know habits die hard. I also hate sweets, I can't stand the taste of chocolate always bitter no matter the hue and sugar mainly makes my teeth ache and scream at me, I can hardly stand the classic Pepsi because it has ACTUAL sugar in it... so sad. As a kid I was gave away my candy to other kids or my teachers or else it'd just rot in my room.

uglytrolls
08-03-2012, 08:50 PM
just picky. dinner is a trial sometimes because its basically everyone eating one thing while i eat something else.
i also eat when im bored. im just thankful for my high metabolism otherwise id probably be the one ton teen by now oh no.

theres days where i feel kinda awful so i dont eat a thing and sometimes that lasts a few days which i live on sandwiches during just so i can survive a little heh.

Judicant
08-03-2012, 11:51 PM
just picky. dinner is a trial sometimes because its basically everyone eating one thing while i eat something else.
i also eat when im bored. im just thankful for my high metabolism otherwise id probably be the one ton teen by now oh no.

theres days where i feel kinda awful so i dont eat a thing and sometimes that lasts a few days which i live on sandwiches during just so i can survive a little heh.

I used to be like that.

And then boyfriend, going to his house and being expected to eat their food, HAD TO CHANGE THAT PICKINESS.

catwithpen
08-04-2012, 12:23 AM
The sort of foods I eat changed somewhat when I started eating with my mate. First of all, he gets the good quality stuff; I've always gotten what's cheaper, and didn't realize what I was missing until I started eating at his place.

He's also celiac, so I buy bread and such less often, cuz I have to eat it all by myself.

And probably the biggest change for me: his meals have less veggies and more meat. I don't like most vegetables, so that's fine by me, but there are a few that I do like, and he gets them for me even though he doesn't eat them and thinks I'm a weirdo :P

Sometimes he comes home with a bouquet of broccoli for me, and I think it's terribly sweet. "Aww! For me?" :inlove:

BudgieBin
08-04-2012, 09:35 AM
I got on birth control about a year ago. During the first few months, I had absolutely terrible moodswings in which I would often end up not wanting to eat anything. What I did eat was often very simple things in the category of "comfort food", which usually included chocolate, peanut butter, or cheese. (Sometimes I just cut out the middleman and ate buttered bread, hunks of chocolate, or peanut butter on a spoon) Sometimes I would just "give up" if there was no particular "suitable" food and just not eat at all, and eventually the feeling of hunger would go away.

I distinctly remember one particular day in which i cooked macaroni and cheese with vegetables and chicken. I love mac and cheese. It's pretty much my favorite food. A few bites into my meal, I found a piece of chicken which had a tendon inside it. I remember getting PERSONALLY OFFENDED and irrationally upset that the tendon found its way into my meal and I threw the entire bowl out because who wants dumb mac and cheese anyway. I never continued lunch.

Since then, I have had these kind of food-related impulses far less often, though I will often put off eating, and even my ability to eat is limited to very small portions at a time. Most "average" portions usually lasts 2 meals, but about 2 times a month I generally feel the urge to just eat anything I can. We go to fast food place, order the cheap dollar burgers/burritos, and just eat 2-3 each (my bf, on the other hand, manages up to 4 frequently).

I guess it's a pretty effective diet, losing a few pounds a month on reduced intake alone. :\

It does mean I can eat a lot of really delicious comfort food though!

Ratte
08-04-2012, 03:55 PM
I've always been overweight even though I don't overeat/eat shitty food all the time and I exercise regularly. I love food but I really don't like eating a lot of snacky foods because I just end up feeling gross. Kinda like how you feel after pigging out on fast food or something.

My mom lives on a diet of shitty food (think Hostess Zingers, cookies, etc) and no less than 12 cans/day of Diet Coke. I don't know how she's alive. I love fresh fruit and vegetables, real cheese and breads, and a few snackier (candy, etc) things here and there, but not very often. I'm a sucker for trying new foods provided it doesn't have some kind of insect. Anything from something I can't pronounce from TJ's to a scorpion pop is fair game.

I will say there are some textures I don't particularly care for (bread pudding, flan) but I still like the taste. I really really don't like things made with HFCS. It tastes bad and gums up my spit and has that gross processed flavor to it. When I'm financially independent I'll actually be able to have a really good diet. Everything my family eats comes in a box, they're so fucking picky. :[

RadioCatastrophe
08-05-2012, 05:10 AM
@BudgieBin; I know that feeling x_x; I just switched from one type of hormone to the other with my birth control, and I just don't wanna eat if it isn't what I'm craving and I've broken down and cried because my boyfriend refuses to let me eat what I want :x
It's so horrible...

Theresa
08-05-2012, 09:48 PM
I had some pretty serious Depression after Thanksgiving up until about the end of April. I was on medication for it, but it was still bad enough that I seldom left my bed, let alone my dorm room. There were many days where I would wake up in the early evening, take my meds with half a glass of tea I made last night, and then go back to sleep. When I went home, my parents later told me that they were scared of how frail and underweight I looked, especially considering that I've always been trim and had been on my school's crew team earlier that semester.

Then there was the new medication was supposed to make me stop trying to kill myself but all that really happened was anorexia/bulimia on top of everything, and augh god i was seriously messed up for a long-ass time and i think im gonna draw something nice okay

Lilyface
09-29-2012, 04:15 PM
Oh boy! I've got so many health restrictions on my diet that I'm basically an carnivore. I get kidney stones! Calcium oxalate ones, to be exact, and so there's a huge list of things I can't eat or in a few months I'll be in agony/possibly need medical attention.

On the flip side, I'm kind of a huge fan of food. Not picky at all, I love veggies and fruits the most. That's part of what makes my diet so frustrating- I can't eat most of the things you get, well, everywhere. Grocery shopping used to be one of my favorite things and now all it does is make me depressed. The things I miss the most though are potatoes.

Man, I miss potatoes.

I've also got a super-active metabolism so it's quite a challenge getting enough calories a day to maintain a healthy weight while staving off diabetes and heart disease, which is found on both sides of my family. In a few days though, I'm going to be starting the Paleo diet and trying to see if I can slowly wean my old diet back into my lifestyle at the advice of my urologist. Just gotta stay hydrated, and I should be alright!

Oly
09-29-2012, 06:45 PM
I always shake my head at picky people. I eat practically everything. I've even started eating fish and olives which are things i used to avoid at all costs.

I've been lucky that i have no health restrictions on what i can eat. Extra lucky since i love eating so much stuff! Only things I don't like are offal and mint, and the strongest of fishy fish. Still don't like pears much but meh if it's with other fruit I can handle it. I don't eat a lot of meat lately since it's expensive and i'm paranoid about modern grain-fed hormone injected bullshit meat. but i definitely love me some beef. Steak and hamburger, plus i use ground meat in sauces and rice a lot. for soups i tend to use strips or cubed steak meats/stewing beef.

I'd honestly love to make myself have to raise, kill and butcher my own meat, but beyond my natural squeamishness about killing animals, it's just not something that is practical if you don't live on your own in the middle of nowhere on a farm. i would feel so much better about it though, knowing exactly what went into that steak i'm eating both feed and work-wise, and because at least if i have to kill my own animals can make sure it's done as humanely as killing something can be done, instead of the awful bullshti animals have to go through at slaughterhouses. :/

I still need to try and find a good source of healthy local meat to buy from instead of the grocery store. At least I could support local farmers that way.